I hardly update my LJ so when I do it's actually a miracle

Hi. It's been eons since I last updated. I'm still alive, well and living... at least for now. At the rate that I am going, I don't know if I will be able to survive Uni life. It's so daunting, tutorials after tutorials, lectures after lectures... I can't seem to keep up with the speed of things, even after 10 weeks of being there. I have not even gotten used to staying in hall. I get homesick just after 1 night sleeping there and I honestly don't know how others do it. 

We used to be able to meet so often then, and I took for granted that we'll be able to meet each other as often in the near future. Now, not far from when I made that assumption, I realised that that has become a challenge and no longer a luxury. Soon, the distance will stand between us and I guess not seeing you will become a norm? So now if it means that I can only meet you virtually, then I'll do whatever it takes to make it work, even if it means staying up late at night to accompany you. And even then we don't have to exchange words and that to me would suffice.
 

Yesterday I met the people I used to spend most of my life with and it was then that I remembered how my life used to involve lots of laughter and relatively more happy moments than what I am experiencing now. God, I miss you guys. I think life would be so much different because we're not able to relate to each other's lives anymore. We can't laugh at the day's happenings because we weren't there to experience it altogether. :( I know I have to toughen up now, and stop being so emotional about the separation. I've been in denial the whole time and telling myself that we're all going to stick together like glue and that I don't have to meet new people and make them like me because I have you guys but who am I kidding right? We are going to have to find new friends to fill in the empty spaces in our lives because unlike then, you guys won't be around that often anymore. Whether or not I'm able to find someone who can be as wonderful and as trustworthy as you guys, that's another hurdle I have to overcome........

I can never say enough how much I love you guys, not in a lesbian kinda way of course. You guys made me feel cool and made me feel belong to something worthwhile. XOXOXOXO

Why is it that every time I post something on my LJ, it's to publicly announce my state of unemployment?

YES FOR THE FOURTH TIME I AM UNEMPLOYED!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! 

I am sightly rejoicing because the job that I just got laid off from was really really stressful and all but now I'm starting to feel restless!!!!!!! But, this time I told myself that I will not find another job that would rob me of my social life and my right state of mind. Heeeheeeheee.

I AM SO WORRIED OF GETTING BROKE ::(:(:(

I feel quite pathetic, really. It's only the 2nd day that you're not around and I feel soooooooooooooooo down. The weather has been following my mood. Just down in the dumps.

I'm very tempted to pick up my phone and send you an sms but I really don't want to disturb you... So I'll just send you emails... Hoping you'll be able to see them... :(

OKAY IZYAN YOU HAVE TO CHEER UP.

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What's the biggest joke of all? I work in a Library and today, after 5 years, I finally cleared my fines, $21.60's worth. Was quite painful to part with such an amount, but I think I won't rest till I pay off the fines. Not only that, Zed the awesome, printed for me a card! 

I think I'm going to miss working here. My colleagues and the patrons. It's a lot different from the Giant customers by a milestone definitely. I suppose I have to be realistic... I hope I made the right decision to leave this place.

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HELLO AKMAL!!!
Because you are awesomoe I shall put what you just said to me here for me to remember and for you to laugh when you read my blog.

ak-MAL___ says:

 

hahaha. so if u nk taruk ke tk taruk it doesnt matter to me. the point is be with me smpi yg ane bole.

 

HAHAHAHA.
Thank you for cracking me up.

My body is telling me to fall asleep, like a deep deep sleep. I feel extremely tired, even though today was not as physically demanding as other days. Maybe it's a sign I am falling sick or just falling into a deep depression. I am not even hungry! Which worries me alot because normally I have two meals of rice and many snacks in between, but today I didn't have a proper lunch which consisted of only a hot dog puff and a small serving of nasi goreng for dinner, and I am still not hungry! Talk about scaaaary.

Today marks the last day at work, ok more of like a 3 week break before I have to return to TKSS again and this time with more responsibilities and work. Yikezzzzzzzzzz. Looking forward to seeing the familiar faces, but definitely not looking forward to the workload

Hi Akmal, I love you.